My Girlfriend

"I loved hearing about your girlfriend". Said no one ever. Well, maybe that's likely because a lot of people brag about their SOs and talk about them sexually nonstop. I am not one of those people; instead I like to talk about her because I find her fascinating and I am in love.

Me and my girlfriend met by chance off somewhere online. It was only after a few days I actually found out that she lived somewhat nearby me, which gave me some comfort and feelings of security of our relationship. It's only grown stronger throughout the months and not weaker. I like how she cooperates with me, gives me security, makes me feel loved and listened to. Something I've never experienced in my life before her.

Love should be: mutuality and respect. It should not be intimidation and submission/dominance. It is normal of the human state to have conflicting human interest; it is NOT normal to have constant conflict in a relationship.

I personally am of the opinion that people do date out of convenience a lot. Hookup culture, dating apps, and other forces have further worsened it. If you are not feeling cared for, loved for, and respected, you should leave; or prepare yourself to do so.

I had signs I was a lesbian since I was a very small kid; it manifested in forms such as gender dysphoria where I played with boy clothes, boy things, and wanted an alternate masculine first name. As I grew up, it manifested into struggling with my emotions and relationships. I dated men and women alike to try to figure myself out; and I was both very deeply unhappy with both results I got, but I knew in my heart I was attracted to exclusively women and only women; not men.

When I came out and dumped my then-boyfriend at the time, I felt relieved instantly. I felt like I had left a death trap and I was ready to live my young adult life as the proud lesbian woman I was actually meant to be. I was very deeply in the closet before, and was constantly lying/fooling myself.

It took a good three years, but I eventually met my now-girlfriend, and I've never felt happier. I have a reason to strive, get up in the morning, provide. Additional reasons. More reasons. It's always good to have more.